Last Night when I was coming back from a long transffer lets say a 5 plus hour patient haul I decided to call tiffany the girl that I fallen for and I told her to put the the boys on the phone so I could talk to them jordan and ashton are 7 and 8 and when jordan got on the phone he asked me "do you have kids " I told him no and asked him if he wanted to be my kids he started laughing and giggling he said yes and he asked me if I could be his daddy and almost started crying he droped the phone and ran through the house yelling "mommy we got a daddy he wants to be our daddy. I have never heard two kids so happy in there life to have a daddy it just made my day. and had to hide the tear of joy

                          -737 is 10-24

 

Here I sit in a daze I have been putting in hours upon hours here at the station the pay period that just ended this sat I had 25 plus hours of over time in. why I put all these hours in is because I feel like I can never good enough and the more hours I put in the more experince and training I obtain to be the best I can be but I feel like I can never reach it. Boy did I just get  writers block just now I have so much to share and so much I want to say but I just dont know how to put it in words at this time or were to begain for that matter of fact. the blinking curser is just so hypnotizing at this point. I think I will start with this I think I have really fallen in love and found the women I am meant to be with I know it sounds corny and all but It is true I have given up on and ended all my other relanships to start one with her we have knowen each other since grade school but as we grew older we moved apart she married and had two kids and got divorced and I married and got divorced she moved back to the Mn area and Im still in wi. there father is hardley around and she getting ready to move back to the tulsa area. so I got ahold of her and we started to reconnect and things have moved along I am thinking of relocating and getting work out there wich is not hard to do In my line of work there is always openings due to the high burn out rate I hear.  Her kids are so excited to meet me  for the first time I am going back to Mn to spend a week with her and the kids. We never relized how much we have had in common though she is only older by 3 years we like alot of the same movies music foods and hobbys. its wierd just how your good you have knowen for years turns out to be the one you fall for and how every thing comes togethere in the end. But theres still this emptiness and lost feeling I have I feel like a zombie most days.  what am I missing or not doing to feel like this I hate this feeling some of my co-workers have said that I look pale and haggred. I have been talking to head-shrinks I just feel like the dont understand me or just what I do or experince day to day at work at home  but when I am on here and let it out I do feel a tad better why that is I dont know.



               -737 is 10-8

Hello everyone it hs been awhile since I lst ranted and raved I am at the station for a weekend of work Friday 4pm till sat 12 am or if you it would be sunday morn off for eight then back sunday for a 16 hour shift. I am loving my new Job I get to make a difference in peoples lives and some say I am the patch Adams of EMS I get people to laugh and smile at the worst time in there life.  I have also seen stuff that I never thought i would have to see like two prison guards brutalized by an inmate wiith a claw hammer boy that  was quite an eye opener. its snowing out and my crew is on deck I just hope its a uneventful night. I have been pondering this question is it wrong to like and be in love with more then one women at one time were i am coming from is that I have been divorced for almost two years now and I want to see whats out there I dont want to be tied down for a while I have a heart that doesnt want to be tamed  I have one seriouse girl and I am interested in others some women say that aint right and I want you all to myself I understand were there coming from but they have to understand also I was in relanship for five years and that now that I am not i want to see and shop around i have a lot love to share and I want to be a casanova  is that so wrong? but other than that things have been preetty busy  with calls and I have been busy with traing and becoming the best I can be 


                                  737 is 10-8

Well hello to everyone yes it may have seemed that I have dropped off of the face of the earth but the fact is that I did get into a full time ambulance service and have been putting in a lot of hours I think the first two weeks I had 112 overtime hours and this pay check i will have 80 plus hours of overtime I am loving it and learning so much and picking up little tricks and tips of the trade from the vetrans. for you that dont know the town of waupun the town has quite a few prisons theres the walls which is the maxium prison and then theres dodge correctional which is the clearing house and intake prison across town then theres the burke center for the women and outside of town a few miles is fox lake correctional the medium prison. so we get a lot of calls to them and take a lot of calls to UW Madison to take them down there for Medical it can get crowded in the rig with the patient plus two or three guards depending on the inmate. first week on the job had an overdose at the walls and a hanging at dodge poor kid was only 20 and would have been out in 18 years.  Lot of the people I work with are suprised by my skills and how much I know all ready there very happy that I run with them. well were getting paged out gotta go 

 I know it has been a while since my last blog a lot of things have been going on had job interview down in Madison with a very good company interview went very well loved the ambulance service they have been around for 46 years then I waited a week a got the dreaded letter saying thanks but no thanks and i found out they didnt even call any of my references. what the hell the i have not trained for years and been in the field for 3 three years now.  I worked quad races Friday night and Sunday and both days we had to fly riders out both days one seems like he wont make it at the age of 15 he has major head trauma  Im just so tired  of not making it in my job field and  dealing  with  stupid  people who make dumb choices that might end there lives. my head hurts right now and im so tired yet i think Im done writing for now

  So I went to midwest ambulance today for my Interview for an EMT-B well the interview was ten in the morning I got there at nine just because i like to be early and they got me in right away and we sat down and went through all those dam stupid question like were do you see your self in five years and what are your goals and what do you want out of this company and so on well we got through all that and he is like well how well do you know the de moines area I told him last time I was there was in 86 when my dad was dying and that was the last time I was down there I was honest and told him that give me a map and I will have about every road knowen in no time and i am a quick learner . so they said have a seat out in the lobby and were going to go over your paperwork and talk about it. so I waited for what seemed like hours but it was only for about ten to fifthteen mins they said they were not going to hire me on at this time because i dont know the area and I have only had my basic licence for only a few months then what the hell was I thinking is my three years of experince in the med field as a first responder and a firefighter dont count for anything what an ass hole I thought a guy who wears a suit and tie and does not look like he has ever been in the med field is telling me my schooling and experince is nothing has he had a gun pulled out on him or stand in the weather elements and try to save some one or hold on to some one as they are dying and bleeding and you know what ever you do is not going to work. I bet you he has not been there for any of those things i know most seasoned parameds and EMT's want some one with experince like me running with them on a rig ohhh I am so livid and pissed right now I have travled half way across two states to just to be said no too.

  Its been a long time since I last sat down and had a chat with you guys well since I have gotten my licence for EMT-B I have started to put apps in with diffrent ambulance service's all over in wi and a few out of state like in Iowa and New York and other places well I got a call from midwest ambulance service out of Iowa to come down for an job interview on the fourth of aug so I said surrrrrrrrrre I was so excited because  most of my biological family lives there and I was heading home again it has been too long since last saw them. heres a little history listen on me I was born and raised in Iowa texas and the south well my father passed when I was four mom took me and ran north to mn and gave me up for adopten not giving my dads only brother a chance to raise me or giving me a chance on who I wanted to be with. well when I was old enough I got back in touch with my family well here I am after all these years back home again hoping to get the job and move back with me famly and maybe take my old name back again so I left thursday a day earlier then what  I had planned so I now have been down here for four days and meeting family again and catching up on stuff theres a lot a memorys here good and bad I guess I have been self medicating myself by drinking for two days straight why to block a lot of the memorys outs and so I can stop crying and now I am seconde guessing myself do I really want to come back im hurting bad inside I have been so sick the last couple of days cant keep anything down and in me and just feeling wore out and tired just writing this I am fighting back the tears again. maybe if I get the job I wil put in so many hours that I keep myself busy and wont have time to think of the past then. its wierd also not having my pager on and not going on medical calls i feel naked with out it and feel lost lol I guess we need a little vaction now and then.   

this is going to be my shortest blog i have written to date I just to happen to be listening to my base unit and just how busy unit 80 which is a medical unit for the town of montello has been all day I believe  they  were just finishing up with there fourth call when a page went out for a young man like in his thirty's who fell from a garage roof and is now bleeding from the back of the head and is now PNB which means pulse less not breathing well they started thumping and pumping for a good while med flight was inbound when they called it. i just sat there dumbfounded a man that was for all i know healthy and alive just a few minutes ago in his prime of his life takes a wrong step and ends it all in a blink of an eye. it just goes to show how short life can be and to live life to the fullest and as if every day is your last.



                                  -737- is 10-41

    I thought I would write a little some thing while I am laid up for a while it started with the weekend of the fourth of July working medical at moto in mn  it was Sunday and we had four drops left and the day would be over with no injury's  but i spoke to soon  there would be two  mine and  one of the racers  one of the  racers  was  in midair  when he  was  tapped in midair which caused him to take a nose dive we got to him he was knocked out we did the usual sternum  rub  and a trapezes  pinch that was not working after about three min he finally came around by then i yelled for them to call for med flight because I noticed that he shattered his femur  and it started to balloon up which means that he might have nicked the artery and was bleeding internally  or swelling so we got him packaged  back boarded c-collard and got the traction splint on and an IV started by the time mayo 1 landed  which aint bad because they were there with in 10 min or so well as we were getting him on the bird i was following behind with the IV kit and other kits well as i was getting off the track I stepped the wrong way and heard and felt a pop behind my knee that couldn't be good i thought  well  we  finished up with the races with no other injuries thank god but my leg is killing so we packed up and drove three hours home got home and barley  could stand or bend it so monday I called the doctor  and came  in  she  looked at it  and said it was  so swollen   in the leg  that is looks like I tore my ACL  or the other is i might have riped a tendon in my calf I hope its the calf one I don't  need  any more surgery's so here i lie all doped up and in a brace I go monday to see her again i wonder what there going to do I can not have an MRI done because of the metal heart valve I had put in last year.



                             -737- is 10-42

  Yes I am still very much alive people I have not droped off of the face of the earth it is that I have been very busy in between medcal call wich we have had like 8 or so in the last week and that is very un-normal for our town of 1,100 and sandbaging to save our town from being wiped off of the face of the earth. It all started last thursday with storms dumping inches upon inches of rain on us with in minutes plus throw a few tornados in there and wind and i knew we were screwed considering that we were still recovering from the last rainstorm we had so the water had no place to go so roads were being washed away and dams  were barley holding on. friday morning national guard finally showed up to help and just in the nick of time every one needed a break for a awhile it was a long night of helping other towns and rescues and sandbaging. so yes its been a long week so far and I hear the water is supposed to rise anthore foot yet just great.  So Sunday  I was heading back home when my pager decides to go off for a man who is foaming at the mouth and not responsive great anthore PNB I was thinking why are these people dropping like flys?  Well I got there he is coming around great thats a good sign now the seconde problem is trying to get him out of his seconde story apt on a backboard through doorways no wider then me and down a back porch that is no wider then me again and looks like it was built when noah built the ark so as we start heading out on to the porch I hear the worst noise in the world cracking of the porch oh shit I thought Here I go for a ride two storys down with a patient landing on top of me and me becoming a grease spot on the ground or the ambulance below me the porch dropped two or three inches I shoved the patient and the other EMT back through the door  in a heap boy that was close  okay back stairs is no longer an option  how about the front stairs boy that does not look any better also there almost straight down and a ninety degree turn to anthore landing and then out the door okay heres the plan folks since I just hurt my back on the last attempt were going to call the fire dept to help with the seconde attempt down the front stairs any one object good didnt think so so after being on scene for almost fourty five min we finally got him out and on the way to the ER.  So yes it is has been hetic around here and I will try my hardest to write to my loyal readers those who put up with my ramblings of insanity i thank you from the bottom of my heart it means the world to me that I do have people that are interested in what I have to say thank you so much again.


       -737- is 10-42

       The weekend went really good a few accidents here and there because the track was so dry even though we watered the hell out of it we had a few broken femurs and wrist and only had to med flight one out because he decide to hit the brakes to hard so he would not hit the next guy in  front of him so he decide to do face plant instead into the rock hard ground and busted up his face. the weather was really nice cloudy and cool but I ended up with a nice tan but my girlfriend was not so lucky she got so burnt that she is still trying to recover. butt all and all it was a good weekend  come to find out  the guy  that I did CPR  on was my boss's husband at work she was so happy that I was there that day to revive her husband but the sad part is that they took him off of life support this Monday there was no sign of brain activity so they all said there goodbyes and let him go peacefully and the want me at the wake tonight so on my birthday i have to go to a wake and i have been to way to many wakes and funerals this year but those I try to save the family's always want me there its hard for me but I still go.  Thank god I have no work this weekend or i don't have to travel I am going to relax and have a good weekend celebrate my birthday today and spend time with loved ones and friends tomorrow.  I am just so burnt out and tired I do need me time and I am going to enjoy it my girlfriend has something special planed for me tomorrow I cant wait its going to be fab I hear.      

    I am so pumped from last night after our crappy meeting I thought it was going to be a boring night nope not a chance as soon as i got home for about twenty min and starting to relax I heard the page go out for Berlin primary to respond to the sheriff's dept for an inmate that was bleeding from the head and turning blue dam it I yelled thats us why have they not paged us yet I am going it is a block from my Apartment I got there in record as usual they took for ever to open the doors I started to run down the hall with the other first responders in tow behind me as I round the corner into the cell I see an adult male lying on the ground life less and blue in the face as blue berry and blood all over the cell from the floor to the walls great I thinking another messy call.  theres the jailer on the floor she has the AED hooked up and in panicked voice she asked what to do I said start chest compressions I am getting the combi-tube ready after dodging all the blood I got to the guy finally and started to stick my fingers in his mouth to do a tongue jaw lift I noticed that his mouth fall of blood and his teeth was loose I was thinking (A) he has facial trauma which is going to make things harder to do or (B) he has dentures.  After I found out that it was answer B I was so happy so I suctioned the airway and removed the teeth I was good to go the tube slid right in and got it inflated and started to vent him so pumping and breathing for him about ten min because Berlin is about a 15 to 20 min drive and they want to use Berlin because they want to keep all inmates  in the county or other wise it would have been faster for Ripon to show.  so we have been pumping and bagging now for awhile when we stopped for a rhythm check we noticed movement in the neck and the start of agonal breathing yeaaaaaaaaaaaa he is coming around so Berlin gets there we put a line in him hook up a monitor and load him to the cot which is fun because there is no room in the jail at all so you can just imagine you have three deputy's, two jailer's, three EMTs, and six responders in there so yep its like a clown car full of clowns so we get him loaded and one of the  first responder went with the ambulance to help because with a PNB you need at least three in the back one pumping one bagging and one pushing meds or other stuff to be done.so I told him I would pick him up at BMH as I went back into the jail to grab my gear as one of the jailer was holding a bag of red goo asked if I wanted to take it up to BMH I said sure why not just slap it in a bio-hazard bag and I will give to them up there so I got there handed over the red goo to the nurse and started chit chatting with the EMT's and the deputy's on the way up there they gave him some narcan which reverses the effects of narcotics in the system once they gave him that he started to come around a little more and blood pressure begin  to rise and pulse was picking up yes we saved him I was so happy I heard that theda star was inbound and eight min out  I was going to stick around and watch the helio land.  Come to find out the inmate had a BAC of 2. something and he had barbiturates in his system and has a history of seizures not  a good mix but we brought him back minus the large wound on the back of his head to come to find out thats where all that dam blood was coming from. the deputy's were so happy that he made it because it means less paper work for them to do if he had not made it and died in his cell then the cell would become a crime scene and thats means lots of paperwork for them. oh and by the way one of the deputy's on last night was Kevin the one I asked for directions on how to get back to green lake well he said to me I see you found green lake all right i said yep took me awhile but I found it he laughed.

             -737- is 10-96

       Oh I am still trying to wake up I finally crashed about five o'clock this morning I was dead tired and should have been in bed much earlier then I was.  But we have been busy with medical calls for example the one we had last night a nose blood that wont stop and she is coughing up blood well I can fix one of those sit forward and you wont cough up any more blood. well i got there and soon found out she was a patient before and I mean that not a good way she is one that you might have to call rescue for assistance in lifting her to the ambulance but lucky enough I and a few others managed to get her in with out rescues help this time.  But  as I got on scene first as I tend to do she turned around and was babbling and trying to talk to me she started to spray and cough blood all over great I thought to myself now i have to re-shower and clean up what ever gear she just coated in blood and maybe throw out cloths that have anything on them just great now I know why only one other person responded to the call.  Besides that we have been on standby for two other calls and had one call where a older lady decide to have a few to many and nothing to eat she thought it would be nice to go over backwards and smuck her head on the bar and jukebox.  One we were on standby for I wish we went so did the county boys they way it sounds it was about a half mile from our response area but some one decided to hit a deer and roll the car a few times.  Well Berlin primary and backup went there dumbass's took the wrong road out of town plus from what I hear they almost got into a brawl and fist fight with each other and couldn't agree on what to do. Just not what you want an ambulance service to be doing when your in need of medical treatment that is why we as first responders and EMT-B act like pros. well I am trying to get ready for the big race weekend we leave Friday and will not be back till Monday night I  will do MX Sat and quads Sunday and Monday I am thinking since it is a big point weekend it is going to be everyman for him self weekend wich I am thinking were going to have a few patients hopefully no Med flights though. here is a link to vid of the track I will be working at let me know what you guys think of it.   It is one of the best videos of spring creek by far that I have found   http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GYY9AZB9FKU&feature=related


                737 is 10-2

    Okay I try to watch some shows religiously like Rescue me and C.S.I and so on well C.S.I  was on tonight and they were hyping it up pretty big that Warrick was getting accused of killing some one well he was cleared  and to come to find out it was a bad sheriff deputy that set him up well as the show was closing and coming to an end everyone was saying there goodbyes Warrick was walking to his car out of all places he parked in an alley behind the dinner like they dont have parking in the front you could just feel that some thing was about to happen like the Deputy that framed him was going to jump out of some were.  But that does not happen the sheriff appears and talks to warrick then all of sudden you hear a gun shot ring out and you see warrick slump forward then a second shot and they pull out and the sheriff is standing there as the screen goes black I just just wanted to jump and scream what the hell they already had one character leave earlier in the season because she fell in love with Grissom  oh my I am about pulling out my hair they cant get rid of him what i am thinking he will live long enough to point out who did it to him then he will die okay okay enough of that I have just lost most you guys and you thinking that I have lost my marbles.  Well for you those I have not bored yet there has not been much going on in my little world except that i have been studying like hell and getting to know this one wonderful lady she is so interesting and tantalizing and makes me think one word sums her up WOW well i better get going and get some shut eye for the night


                               -737- is 10-2

    Well from the tittle you can guess that I am not that coherent I was out most of the night celebrating and partying that we are done with school and me and my partner passed the state clinical exams yesterday we were the first done and to hand in our paper work well they started calling in others in before us to let them know if they had to redo a station or not we were getting a little nervous at first but as the state examiner walked passed us he gave us " Team U.S.A" a little wink so we knew right away that it was all good.  so we all meet at Applebees at first to get some thing to eat since it was about noon already and to start in on the drink we had a few beers then a few Irish car-bombs boy those do not go down well let me tell you that after we all said our tearful goodbyes and made promises to get together now and then a few us from the Green lake and fox lake area stopped at another bar had a few there and thats were we started  to play for drinks by playing darts. we then thought it was smart to start heading for the last bar where we were going to stay for the rest of the night boy did we drink and we played a lot of darts and we just didn't play for drinks any more we thought it would be fun to play for the losing team had to eat either a pickled egg or turkey gizzard or pork hock yes I had a few hocks last night they are not to bad I have to say. well  the sweet nectars of the gods flowed until I was so  sick at 11ish that I said I am going to have to call it a night so as I decided to head  back home but we are in Fairwater I have no clue where I was or which way Green lake is all I know is that I have to head north somehow to find home. One of my biggest pet peeve is drinking and driving and I did it last night I know it was wrong of me but I had no place to stay or knew no one in town and there was no sexy ladies to take me home last night because they were all on here blogging (wink wink) but I did it anyhow so I got back In the county saw one of the county boy's I know sitting in his squad so my dumb ass pulls over and ask him on how to get back to Green lake and that I was not familiar with the area and I bet you I smelled to high heaven of hocks and shots that why I did not get to close to him so he pointed me in the right direction and I was off on my way again to find a town of 1,100 I had once lost earlier that night  and a drive that takes oh about 20 min to get home I got home in about an hour after a few wrong turns.  well I am so glad that is now over  with and all I have left is to take the written which should not be a problem after I brush up on OB/GYN  and lady issue's.


             -737- is 10-56