Life and my thoughts
My thoughts and experiences through out life and my experiences in the EMS field the up and downs of it all
Tv
Okay I try to watch some shows religiously like Rescue me and C.S.I and so on well C.S.I was on tonight and they were hyping it up pretty big that Warrick was getting accused of killing some one well he was cleared and to come to find out it was a bad sheriff deputy that set him up well as the show was closing and coming to an end everyone was saying there goodbyes Warrick was walking to his car out of all places he parked in an alley behind the dinner like they dont have parking in the front you could just feel that some thing was about to happen like the Deputy that framed him was going to jump out of some were. But that does not happen the sheriff appears and talks to warrick then all of sudden you hear a gun shot ring out and you see warrick slump forward then a second shot and they pull out and the sheriff is standing there as the screen goes black I just just wanted to jump and scream what the hell they already had one character leave earlier in the season because she fell in love with Grissom oh my I am about pulling out my hair they cant get rid of him what i am thinking he will live long enough to point out who did it to him then he will die okay okay enough of that I have just lost most you guys and you thinking that I have lost my marbles. Well for you those I have not bored yet there has not been much going on in my little world except that i have been studying like hell and getting to know this one wonderful lady she is so interesting and tantalizing and makes me think one word sums her up WOW well i better get going and get some shut eye for the night
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Sobering up
Well from the tittle you can guess that I am not that coherent I was out most of the night celebrating and partying that we are done with school and me and my partner passed the state clinical exams yesterday we were the first done and to hand in our paper work well they started calling in others in before us to let them know if they had to redo a station or not we were getting a little nervous at first but as the state examiner walked passed us he gave us " Team U.S.A" a little wink so we knew right away that it was all good. so we all meet at Applebees at first to get some thing to eat since it was about noon already and to start in on the drink we had a few beers then a few Irish car-bombs boy those do not go down well let me tell you that after we all said our tearful goodbyes and made promises to get together now and then a few us from the Green lake and fox lake area stopped at another bar had a few there and thats were we started to play for drinks by playing darts. we then thought it was smart to start heading for the last bar where we were going to stay for the rest of the night boy did we drink and we played a lot of darts and we just didn't play for drinks any more we thought it would be fun to play for the losing team had to eat either a pickled egg or turkey gizzard or pork hock yes I had a few hocks last night they are not to bad I have to say. well the sweet nectars of the gods flowed until I was so sick at 11ish that I said I am going to have to call it a night so as I decided to head back home but we are in Fairwater I have no clue where I was or which way Green lake is all I know is that I have to head north somehow to find home. One of my biggest pet peeve is drinking and driving and I did it last night I know it was wrong of me but I had no place to stay or knew no one in town and there was no sexy ladies to take me home last night because they were all on here blogging (wink wink) but I did it anyhow so I got back In the county saw one of the county boy's I know sitting in his squad so my dumb ass pulls over and ask him on how to get back to Green lake and that I was not familiar with the area and I bet you I smelled to high heaven of hocks and shots that why I did not get to close to him so he pointed me in the right direction and I was off on my way again to find a town of 1,100 I had once lost earlier that night and a drive that takes oh about 20 min to get home I got home in about an hour after a few wrong turns. well I am so glad that is now over with and all I have left is to take the written which should not be a problem after I brush up on OB/GYN and lady issue's.
-737- is 10-56
-737- is 10-56
Meeting from Hell
I am writing this blog with a Headache that feels like I was out drinking all night but I wasn't it was the Ambien and Trazodone with alcohol cocktail last night I had after the dept meeting last night. Thank god we just have a training night tonight it started last night as soon as I walked in the door the acting directer asked me why I took pictures of the accident the other night I said I use them for my own training purpose to study types of injury's that can occur during that type of accident she was like oh okay no prob just lets not try to take anymore because I guess one of the other medics is watching me like hawk and is gunning to get rid of me why we both would like know she has been a bitch to the acting directer and is it that she feels like I am a threat to her and why all I try to do is try to be the best of the best if that pisses her off then good because I am her to stay because I am fighter and I will kick and fight till the end. well that was before the meeting even started as we were getting the meeting notes ready when i brought up a topic of testing fees so she put in the notes and said it was a good idea to bring up because they did pay for my class and why not pay for the state written and clinical fees thats why we do our fundraiser in the fall so we do have money to further our education. So as we are about to call the meeting to a start when the pager goes off and I have run to a call for a frequent flier in our area while I was away when they started the meeting and brought up the idea of fees while I was gone I didn't even get chance to state my case why and guess who shot down the idea of them paying for my fees yep you guessed it that medic and her coharts theres about three of them to come find out that want to redo the whole group of first responders so they are in ultimate power. Fuck them I say so I get back and bring up the idea again and they said it was already voted no so right there I stated my case and they said no because they already payed 500 for me to go to class and that was enough and thats the end of it . The other topic was they want to redo our bylaws for schooling and our red light they want us to pay for our schooling first then they will prepay us what some of these class's our not cheap and I cant pull that type of cash out off my ass. and they are thinking about maybe just using our light only when we get on scene I say thats about as useful as screen doors on submarines my good I am so sick and tired of all this small town bullshit I have given this dept two good years all ready and things were not this bad until about two months ago we had problems with the prev directer and then we had to switch and all this started I think its about time to leave.-737- is 10-42
depressed
So I went down and took the test today thought it was easy but I guess not I got the bad news when I logged into my account it said I failed I was so pissed I studied and studied I thought I had it in the bag I thought I was good to go I have two weeks to study before I can retake it again I am almost in tears I have spent almost a year getting ready for this big day I am so upset I didn't even go to training tonight because I am so pissed should I be pissed at myself or the dam test writers? I try to be the best of the best and I feel like I just let everyone down. well it is back to the books I guess I thought after today i could relax a little but nope I am so dead tired and at the end of my dam rope with it all.
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-737- is 10-56
Excited
Well the races went very well Friday night we had no patients and the weather held out for us and I made a 100 in cash for four hours of work I can say that ain't bad for a days work. I started to look over my schedule for this week and boy does it look hectic lets start with today I had training today at the station in the morning and afternoon then Monday I am on call in the morning till 11 then I have a haircut at 1ish and doc appointment after that then its going to be an all afternoon study party while I am on call again then Tuesday morning I have the state written then class with training in the afternoon then class and training wed morning dept meeting that night Thur I have extrication training Thursday night and Friday I have to go over the stations for the clinicals and then Saturday is the big day for the state clinicals all day then its party time after that thank god It is over then. So like I said before I am so looking forward to getting this over with and start relaxing. To be quit honest I am almost sick and tired of some of my class mates for example theres these two older ladies lets say in there 50s well I do a lot of calls with them since there neighboring town well they have been so emotional lately because of the test coming up well one took it and passed and the other took it this Friday and has not found out if she passed yet and she is bawling and cranky at ever little thing some one does I don't blame her one bit just don't take it out on the rest of the class both have been known to do very well on the test in the class and pass everything the teacher has thrown at them but they are so convinced that oh it was so hard were not going to make it oh its the end of the world I just want to scream at them and tell them to shut the hell up and deal with it and your going to be fucking fine. I just cant wait to be done with them and I was going to apply for there ambulance service this summer but I am having second thoughts about it i just want a break from it all and maybe apply with other crews further away from Green Lake like Bell Ambulance out of Millwaukee or Brooks out of Waupun hell why not work for Private contractor's like KBR and other's and head over sea's for awhile make some good cash and get some good hands on experience. Well there that felt better to get that off of my chest it was just bugging the hell out of me all morning when I was there training with them i was about ready to strangle them both lucky enough we cut training short and was out early.
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-737- is 10-78
Waiting
Well Here I sit waiting to see if the motocross is going to get canceled tonight due to heavy rain and storms or not. so as I sit here I am looking over all my class notes because Tuesday is when I head to Millwaukee for the computer state test I hear they take security pretty seriously you have too bring two forms of ID no jewelery no watch's no chewing gum and they finger print four times before they let you into the testing area they also photograph you and make yo take everything out of your pockets and put it in a locker. my lord getting into the country takes less and is easier. Oh was I pissed the other day I was paged out to a medical call across town to the old folks home for a lady who fell and was complaining of back and hip pain so my car has a red L.E.D bar on the window to let people know I am an emergency vehicle and to pull over well I got behind a truck with really dark tinted window I was behind that truck for three min before he noticed me so I passed him came to a stop sign did a rolling stop and went well i guess he is friends with our EMS director and called him and said I blew the stop sign and next time if I did that or anything else he will call the sheriff's office and complain instead of calling the director next time . Well the director E-mailed me and told me about it and how the red light means nothing more then it show the police and fire who we are on scene and we can park in places were we would normally cant and to be a true emergency vehicle we need to have sirens according to the state statutes well and we should obey all the traffic laws. I admit I do speed when i use the red light and some times I have had police giving me an escort to the scene lets say doing ninety some. And whats the purpose of being an EMT-First responder if you don't get there before the ambulance does? And I am not the only one who breaks this rule I have followed behind other medics to go to calls and looked at my speedometer and as they have started to pull away from me then I notice I am doing sixty plus in town were normal its twenty five so what is it "do as I say and not as I do" Know what when its your family and your emergency maybe next time I will follow all the rules of the road and take my time and see what happens I so am sick and tired of this small town BS
-737- IS 10-8
-737- IS 10-8
I am ready
Well next week I take the state written and next Sat I take my hands on clinical I should be all nerves but for some odd reason I am not I feel so calm and confident maybe its all the practice and long hours I have put in to the last year of schooling. I was thinking last night and have come to the conclusion that I will take the next year off from school and just enjoy life and and just take life as it comes i should have done this a long time ago like right after my open heart surgery and taken it easy but it was so hard for me to just sit back and relax I just had to be on the go all the time why is that I ask my self . I tend to be the type that has be on the go all the time and everyone says take it easy but I don't. I have to be there always right in the middle of it all taking it charge and leading the way I feel like things will fall apart if I am not there to fix things and make sure things go off with out a hitch so I think after all this is done in the next two weeks I am going to disappear and drop off of the face of the world for awhile I don't think any who miss me that much barley answer the cell or check my e-mails and meetings will be a thing of a past for the time being but the one thing is I will keep writing to the masses of those who do read my rants and ramblings on this site.
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Back Home
Well it was a long day but it went fast with out too many patients only three and thats a miracle with them running quad's today I wish I could in my free time If I had any to do motocross I had so much fun playing in the mud on the track today with the six wheeler in between drops and trying to catch air with six wheeler is not such an easy thing to do but I did try and did catch a little. I am so sick and tired of mother nature not making up its mind with the weather one day its cold and the next it in the 60s and then there saying snow tonight my lord its all most may I just want nice sunshine mid 60s not to hot and not to warm. I was talking to a few fellow EMS about a call over in Baraboo WI about a father who was drunk and killed his twin babies that were only five weeks old and put them under the bed and passed out on the bed who in the world would do such a thing two innocent lives words I cant think of or even fathom fill me with rage and sadness here is the link to the news article http://www.channel3000.com/editorials/15901324/detail.html well I am going to hit the sack for a few hours of shut and then it back to the books I go
-737- is 10-42
-737- is 10-42
Tired and exhausted
As I was setting up my blog one
of the other medics i work with at the motocross on the weekends called
and asked if I wanted to go to Mn and work Sunday so I thought I should
since I am in need of cash bad to make ends meet so it looks like I
will be getting up in a few hours and be leaving at 3:30 am to make it
to the track by 7 work all day and drive three hours back but oh well I
have to do what I have to do I am so tired right now I have my state
exam for EMT-B this upcoming Saturday class Tuesday night and Wed
morning work Monday night and training on sat and Sunday so right now I
am so looking forward to getting done with school this year and taking
a break the question is so I take a year off of school or go back in
the fall for EMT-I or EMT-IV?
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