Meeting from Hell

I am writing this blog with a Headache that feels like I was out drinking all night but I wasn't it was the Ambien and Trazodone with alcohol cocktail last night I had after the dept meeting last night. Thank god we just have a training night tonight it started last night as soon as I walked in the door the acting directer asked me why I took pictures of the accident the other night I said I use them for my own training purpose to study types of injury's that can occur during that type of accident she was like oh okay no prob just lets not try to take anymore because I guess one of the other medics is watching me like hawk and is gunning to get rid of me why we both would like know she has been a bitch to the acting directer and is it that she feels like I am a threat to her and why all I try to do is try to be the best of the best if that pisses her off then good because I am her to stay because I am fighter and I will kick and fight till the end. well that was before the meeting even started as we were getting the meeting notes ready when i brought up a topic of testing fees so she put in the notes and said it was a good idea to bring up because they did pay for my class and why not pay for the state written and clinical fees thats why we do our fundraiser in the fall so we do have money to further our education. So as we are about to call the meeting to a start when the pager goes off and I have run to a call for a frequent flier in our area while I was away when they started the meeting and brought up the idea of fees while I was gone I didn't even get chance to state my case why and guess who shot down the idea of them paying for my fees yep you guessed it that medic and her coharts theres about three of them to come find out that want to redo the whole group of first responders so they are in ultimate power. Fuck them I say so I get back and bring up the idea again and they said it was already voted no so right there I stated my case and they said no because they already payed 500 for me to go to class and that was enough and thats the end of it . The other topic was they want to redo our bylaws for schooling and our red light they want us to pay for our schooling first then they will prepay us what some of these class's our not cheap and I cant pull that type of cash out off my ass. and they are thinking about maybe just using our light only when we get on scene I say thats about as useful as screen doors on submarines my good I am so sick and tired of all this small town bullshit I have given this dept two good years all ready and things were not this bad until about two months ago we had problems with the prev directer and then we had to switch and all this started I think its about time to leave.

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